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Tuesday, 27 October 2009

  • Hello everyone,

    I am typing the xange again for a remark to myself.

    I have been back for a month and started to revise the module I got.

    But more than that, I have to clean up all the things I left from last year.

    Finding that I was really not responsible to myself last year and I have to due with it since I was back.

    Full of bad luck this month, things stolen, computer broken, lots and lots of things.

    Wasted a thousand and half pounds just a month, with silly reasons.

    Time to learn respect, being good with money, and good to myself.

    I don't want to waste this year or the rest of my life.

    I miss all of you in Hong Kong, including the SYU, and the SYUCF.

    Although I did not call out for lots of gathering, or I did not call you when I was in Hong Kong,  I miss you all, because all of you gave me all the memories that keep me special, as same as you all.

    However, it is time to learn not to depend on someone else. I have to build the way of my life now. Being rich or poor may be the most concern of me at this moment.Still, I will take advise if you can told me what you think.

    Don't know if you will comment on this, but I always need your support.

Friday, 27 February 2009

  • Long time not typing anything on Xanga......

    There are much happened in UK, with goods and the bads.

    Things happened can be so remarkable to be type here.

    However they are just something as normal as we drink water everyday.

    I typed again here because I am lost....

    I am losing directions, targets, and the hope all of you gave me.

    I cannot write a thing on facebook cause my family may know it, and they will chase me to the end for the "Why".

    I received something in the night, something I worried for about a month.

    I lost sleep, having no energy to do anything but just kept thinking on it.

    But...

    it is the most bad news I received since I came to UK.

    I cannot keep my promise, it just jump in to my eyes suddenly telling me that you did not do what you should do.

    It is really out of my expectations....

    Now is 4 am in the morning. I tried to sleep for 1 hr already but I just cannot do so.

    I need prayer, I need someone to help me...............

    But...

    I am in UK, ten million miles away from all of you, I cannot call for help, I cannot call you to listen to me.

    Who can help me? Why am I always being pulled into those bad things?............

    Life is a glory from God, but it is also full of sadness and bad things. I really having them enough, why should I, why should you be special? Why cannot we just be as normal as we can?

    I am really bearing them enough. My heart is just like a timed bomb, I keep on cutting wire to stop its explosion, but when I cut one wire, more wires show up. I am tired on that, I am really tired....

    Can you just cut all the wire for me at once preventing my heart to be broken?....

    I am asking all of you to help me, if you are willing and able to help...............................

Monday, 19 January 2009

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Saturday, 06 September 2008

  • Back from SYUCF O'camp.

    In this camp, I gave & spent so many that I have ever be.

    Although I am just a helper, I worked with the core at the last week. They really tired to do anything, but they still use what they have to help making the camp good to paly.

    In the camp, I saw that the core, and everyone helping in it want it to be good, although they have different bad ability, even myself too, they just wan the freshmen to be happy.

    The camp is full of bad luck, canceling of different things, rearranging of different games. However, the freshmen still forgive us.

    I really feel straight, as I am just greduated, but I am a helper doing alot in camp, and I can say, I spent more than even, either money and man power. May be I just want the last camp I joined before I went to UK to be good.

    I feel full of grace in this camp, God make it to be good and make it to be like what he want us to do, other than playing and playing, but building relationships.

    And I have to say sorry to any bad things or mistakes I made. Those things can be avoided if I asked the core, but I jsut afraid that you all will get more tired if deciding those things, so I just do it on my own. Sorry if I cause any trouble to you all.

    Although I really want to play in this camp, but when I was being placed at where I was placed, I still feel good and saw the weekness of mine, so, still thanks to the camp, and most important , everyone helping in the camp.

    Special thanks to the core: Ada, 紙皮, 魚子, 阿生, Jessie, 阿浩, and every helper. Too many helper la, so let me just thanks someone la, like Apple, Sally, Lorraine, 慧慧, 嘉洋, Issac, Soda, Percy, Carmen..... And many many.

     

    I will go to UK in 20/9, this camp may not be the best, but it is the best memory I have before going to UK.

Friday, 22 August 2008

  • Having a long time not typing xanga after the start of summer holiday.

    A lot has happened during this months.

    However, I think those things or camps can be represented by the following songs.

    And, this is the last present I think I could get from god before leaving to the University of Leicester.

    If you have more to me, I am free to share it.

     

    摘星                                                                                愛是不保留

    歌手:陳百強                                                              曲、詞: 盧永亨        

    日出光滿天 路邊一間旅店                                  常聽說世界愛沒長久,
    名後悔 店中只有漆黑                                           哪裡會有愛無盡頭?
    找不到光輝明天                                                        塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有,
    但店主把我牽                                                             一刻燦爛便要走!
    並告知這間乃快樂店
    人步進永不想再搬遷
                                                   
    而我卻確信愛是恆久,
    怎知我挺起肩                                                              碰到了你已無別求;
    抬頭道:                                                                      
    無從解釋、不可說明的愛
                                                                                           
    千秋過後仍長存不朽!!
    我要踏上路途
    我要為我自豪                                                            
    誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭?
    我要摘星 不作俘虜                                                至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手;
    不怕踏千山 亦無介意                                           
    看!血在流反映愛沒保留,
    面容滿是塵土                                                            
    持續不死的愛到萬世不休!

    提步踏上路途 我要為我自豪                              惟求奉上生命全歸主所有,
    我要摘星 不作俘虜                                                要將一切盡獻於我主的手;
    星遠望似高 卻未算高                                           我已決定今生再沒所求,
    我定能摘到                                                                  
    惟望得主稱讚已足夠!

    日出耀長路
    日光過山跨嶺射到
    如像我永不願停下腳步
    一心與風闖悠長路

    我要踏上路途
    我要為我自豪
    我要摘星 不作俘虜
    不怕踏千山 亦無介意
    面容滿是塵土

    人疲倦也要踏上路途
    我要為我自豪
    我要摘星 不作俘虜
    星遠望似高 卻未算高
    我定能摘到 我定能摘到

Monday, 16 June 2008

  • 《一個母親一生撒的八個謊言》 

    兒時,小男孩家很窮,吃飯時,飯常常不夠吃,母親就把自己碗裏的飯分給孩子吃。母親說,孩子們,快吃吧,我不餓!——母親撒的第一個謊。 


    男孩長身體的時候,勤勞的母親常用周日休息時間去縣郊農村河溝裏撈些魚來給孩子們補鈣。魚很好吃,魚湯也很鮮。孩子們吃魚的時候,母親就在一旁啃魚骨頭,用舌頭舔魚骨頭上的肉漬。男孩心疼,就把自己碗裏的魚夾到母親碗裏,請母親吃魚。母親不吃,母親又用筷子把魚夾回男孩的碗裏。母親說,孩子,快吃吧,我不愛吃魚!——母親撒的第二個謊 。


    上初中了,為了繳夠男孩和哥姐的學費,當縫紉工的母親就去居委會領些火柴盒拿回家來,晚上糊了掙點分分錢補點家用。有個冬天,男孩半夜醒來,看到母親還躬着身子在油燈下糊火柴盒。男孩說,母親,睡了吧,明早您還要上班呢。母親笑笑,說,孩子,快睡吧,我不困!——母親撒的第三個謊。 


    高考那年,母親請了假天天站在考點門口為參加高考的男孩助陣。時逢盛夏,烈日當頭,固執的母親在烈日下一站就是幾個小時。考試結束的鈴聲響了,母親迎上去遞過一杯用罐頭瓶泡好的濃茶叮囑孩子喝了,茶亦濃,情更濃。望着母親乾裂的嘴唇和滿頭的汗珠,男孩將手中的罐頭瓶反遞過去請母親喝。母親說,孩子,快喝吧,我不渴!——母親撒的四個謊。

    父親病逝之後,母親又當爹又當娘,靠着自己在縫紉社裏那點微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着幾個孩子,供他們念書,日子過得苦不堪言。路口電線杆下修表的李叔叔知道後,大事小事就找岔過來打個幫手,搬搬煤,挑挑水,送些錢糧來幫補男孩的家裏。人非草木,孰能無情。左鄰右舍對此看在眼裏,記在心裏,都勸母親再嫁,何必苦了自己。然而母親多年來卻守身如玉,始終不嫁,別人再勸,母親也斷然不聽,母親說,我不愛!——撒的五個謊。

    男孩和她的哥姐大學畢業參加工作後,剛剛失了業的母親就在附近農貿市場擺了個小攤維持生活。身在外地工作的孩子們知道後就常常寄錢回來補貼母親,母親堅決不要,並將錢退了回去。母親說,我有錢!——撒的六個謊。 

    男孩留校任教兩年,後又考取了美國一所名牌大學的博士生,畢業後留在美國一家科研機構工作,待遇相當豐厚,條件好了,身在異國的男孩想把母親接來享享清福卻被老人回絕了。母親說,我不習慣!——撒的七個謊。 

    晚年,母親患了重病,住進了醫院,遠在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飛機趕回來時,手術後的母親已是奄奄一息了。母親老了,望着被病魔折磨得死去活來的母親,男孩悲痛欲絕,潸然淚下。母親卻說,孩子,別哭,我不疼——撒的最後一個謊。

    ...............

Sunday, 15 June 2008

  • From Kim Kam Xanga......

    除了填鴨式教育外,原來,也有填鴨式信仰..............

    是那一種~~~~不經自己思想、沈澱、內化成為生命的信仰~

    我覺得~~我就是那隻口吐白沬的填鴨,
    卻仍然說:「我好開心」

    我很想做~~~~那一隻~~~~~~~
    自由在信仰路上~~~~尋覓、探索的一群~~~*

     

    我問自己。。。。

    今天,我所信的~是一個怎樣的信仰?

    福音怎樣改變我的生命?

     

    The same thing, when i saw this, I asked myself.

    But I believe I am not a duck receiving only, but I really have thnking on what the Christian is.

    I feel happy, because I receive but internalized what I learnt.

    When I asked how I believed changed me, I can tell myself, The one standong in front of you AS Lam Yui Yin Ronald in the name of God already showes you the change that can be made.

    And,

    I can tell you, I really saw what I have to do in future, serve the people that we as christian cannot serve.

    This may be developed only when I am standing only on the ground floor but not back to where I am standing now.

    This is what I believed now.

Friday, 06 June 2008

  • Although I may did something wrong when going to Thailand.

    But I know what I am doing, My road to Spread the Name of God is different for the road as usual.

    So, may I say sorry for the nonsense doing that thing?

    I know you all may think I am not respect to God, but it is just an action to show that I am ready to help the cannot-help.

    It may be a bit mistake to do that action, but I for sure that I will think twice again in doing some kind of thing like that.

    It may be still some mind not cleared in myself, but I really want to say, I am ready for those people.

    I hope you all not getting missunderstand on me, I am not unrespect to God.

    If you really still having questions on me, please, please call me to clear it all.

Saturday, 31 May 2008

  • Went out to have lunch with my secondary school sister.

    She grown up a lot, and the thinking of her grown up too.

    Seeing her seems like seeing myself.

    Pray for her for a good future.

     

    8 hours to go.

Friday, 30 May 2008

  • Today is a bad day for exam, Kill me please!!!

    After that went to have lunch with someone, then go to Causeway Bay and Mog Kok to have some shopping together.

    Brought a small bag, tomorrow will go to buy other things for going to Thailand.

    Went to 溜冰 at night, from 7pm to 10pm. Finally I seems to know how to 溜冰 after falling down so many times.

    Then went to dinner at 10:30pm, then went home.

    Today is good day for learning and sharing but not the good day for exams!!!!!

    I know 溜冰 la!!!

Sunday, 25 May 2008

Monday, 19 May 2008

  • 決定 with 哥去泰國 .

    沒錯, 我是想拜四面佛,

    即使將來是在羅剎道還是地獄,

    我應該沒怨言,

    像我常說的,

    將來一定有人要進地獄,那就我來吧,

    讓你們都可在天家快快樂樂 .

    因為我真的很想到外國去,

    而似乎這是我可行的方法,

    讓我下年在外國生活 .

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